Update

It's been way too long since I've posted here...

I've really fallen out of a routine of working out. I feel horrible about it... yes, I am dealing with an injury which is the only reason I scaled back in the first place... but I know I can do better. Life has just kind of gotten the better of me lately. This week especially has been very busy. I haven't even had time to go grocery shopping yet, and as a result I have been eating way more bad food than I should. I feel like a slob right now.

Finding a new routine has been hard. It seems I have to go "all or nothing" when it comes to fitness. I'm not very good at "sometimes" working out, because then it's just so much easier to find excuses to not do it. I find myself saying asking - what's the point? I am trying to find my motivation again... it's just hard when I'm still struggling with this back and hip pain. Yes - STILL struggling, even despite not doing much of anything. It's a different kind of pain when I'm not running... it seems to be more in my hip and less in my lower back these days. I am pretty sure it has to do with my sacroiliac joint. The good news is I finally start physical therapy next week. I am praying they can fix me and get me back to normal, or close to it. I hope they can just pop my joint or whatever it is back into place.

The last 2 weeks I've been working out sporadically... and although my weight has hovered around the same 156-158 range, I know that if I don't find a way to stay motivated I will start slipping, and slowly but surely all this progress I have made will start to dissolve. I need to force myself to stay active. Right now I am thinking maybe get up early 1 week day and run 2 miles, then run 2-3 on saturdays. Then strength train 1-2 days a week and do yoga 1-2 days a week. So 5-6 days a week of working out. These 2 weeks of little to no activity have made me feel like a sad blob... yet they have taught me the importance of consistently scheduling time to do SOMETHING... I need to remember that it won't be what I'm used to, the pace will be slower, but the point is to DO it. Or else I'll go insane... and get fat. Lol



On to some good news...

We took a day trip to the beach last sunday, which was my first opportunity to get into my bikini since losing 40 lbs. I felt great... I kept bothering my husband to take pictures of me, simply because it's the first time I've felt that confident and good about myself.

We went to Tybee Island, GA which is a beach outside of Savannah, about 3 hours from where we live. I had heard about it and thought it might make a nice little day trip. It's a small place and was pretty crowded with tourists, so our overall feeling of it was "meh". Our favorite beach will always be Outer Banks NC... but since we live 8 hours from it now, those visits will be fewer and far between. So we'll be checking out the southern beaches, and hopefully one day make a trip to FL.


The fact that I'm willing to put a bikini picture of myself on the internet says alot, I think. I am normally not the type to flaunt myself in skimpy clothes, preferring instead to cover myself. But now, I am not afraid to show myself when appropriate, like at the beach. I may not be perfect, but I am a long way from where I once was, and I have finally reached a place where I am content with how I look. My belief is that we should not strive for perfection, but for a healthy self image.

Side note...It's pretty apparent I haven't been to the beach in awhile. Obviously I've been outside in T shirts way too much. That southern sun'll do it!






Another bit of exciting and awesome news is that the NC Warrior Dash is where I'll be headed on saturday! I was originally going for the GA dash back in april, but that didn't happen due to my back pain. Luckily they let me transfer. I heard the GA dash was at a new venue this year and was a pretty poorly planned event... but from what I understand the NC dash will be at a venue they have used in the past. Good, I hate being a guinea pig. This race is in the Charlotte area, about 3 hours away from me - not much of a change there, the GA dash was all the way across the state, also about 3 hours away. I'm looking forward to getting muddy again. Apparently it is not nearly as hard as Spartan, more like a fun run. Plus, it's Warrior Dash ... do I want to play Viking for a day? Hell yes!

Well, that's all for now I suppose. More to come after WD, and I will start posting more... I have to keep holding myself accountable, no matter what.