Body Image

So far this has not been the most active week for me. I had 4 straight days of activity, including 4 very good miles on Saturday and a great Sunday yoga session where I really gave it a good effort. However, I didn't do anything on Monday because we met some friends at Starbucks, and yesterday I was just feeling flat out lazy. Tonight I did my strength workout and managed to work up a good sweat in 20 minutes. I already feel kinda sore.

Today I am feeling kind of fat. I don't know why, but there are some days when I look in the mirror and just think "yeah, I'm lookin GO-O-O-OD!!", but today was one of those days where I put on my form fitting workout gear, looked in the mirror and just said "Ugh..." I think the reason I feel this way right now is because my stomach has been all bloaty lately, probably from going back to fibery foods after 4 days of bad food. It's crazy, even after losing nearly 40 lbs I still feel fat sometimes. I've been this weight for awhile so I guess sometimes I forget that I used to weigh nearly 200 lbs. When this happens I usually look back through my progress pics just to get a little bit of a perspective shift. And I know most females deal with this from time to time. Generally I'd say I'm pretty happy with my body compared to most women, but every now and then I get a little down on myself. These are the times when I have to tell myself I'm not doing this to be "skinny", I'm doing this to be fit and strong. I work hard because I want to do epic shit! And I think as long as I'm working hard and doing epic shit, I can't hate on my body too much.

And the good news is, lately I am noticing that I just "feel" stronger. My little nagging pains are getting better - I am pretty sure I have a heel spur and I thought I was starting to get a case of runner's knee, but my heel isn't too bad most days and my knee hasn't bothered me in a week. Strangely I find that my hip and lower back feel better during periods where I'm really active. Case in point, I didn't work out for 2 days and spent alot of time playing Borderlands 2 with my husband - sitting in my chair. Plus I sit in a chair at work. And today the pain is kinda bad. Now I'm kind of regretting my slacking off!

This weekend I'm heading to Macon for the Spartan Workout. I'm gonna go ahead and go even if my husband has the day off, since I will probably be back around the time he would be waking up. As long as I'm not totally wiped out exhausted we should get to have a nice day together!