Stressed

Like most people, I have my good days and my bad days.

Monday's workout was great. I did Plyometric training which is basically jump training and explosive movements. It's an ass kicker, let me tell you. I first did it in 2010 during one of my many half assed attempts to "get in shape". My husband and I did a brief stint of P90X (I am using their Plyo training video) I was about 20 lbs heavier than I am now, had zero cardio endurance, and was just generally not in good shape prior to starting the program. I can safely say that my 2013 attempt at the Plyo workout was much better. I did have to take more breaks than they actually give you, but throughout the whole video they tell you that you will probably have to pause to take breaks, and encourage you to do so. It's a great workout that left me feeling good and covered in sweat.

Yesterday was a rest day/errands day

Today my back has been bothering me alot. I have always had back pain, but I am starting to think that my job, running, or some combination of the two, is causing the right side of my lower back/hip to act up. That area has been bothering me more than normal today. Then towards the afternoon I noticed my abs and core felt really tense. They aren't sore or in pain, just kind of tight and tense. And now as I'm sitting here typing this, my middle and upper back are hurting! WTF is going on! Maybe it's just my body recovering from the Plyo training? I probably did a number on my core since my whole body was moving in ways it's not used to. And I did have that weird abdominal cramp on sunday, but after a few hours I no longer felt any tension or pain from that. I don't know. It's just like I'm carrying alot of tension in my body right now. After I type this I'm going to go relax, maybe do some deep breathing and meditation, take a bath, and hopefully convince my husband to give me a back massage.

Maybe I'm just stressed. My weight has not budged in days. I've been stressing about it and about what I eat. I've felt guilty for eating tiny pieces of candy. I feel like my belly is flabby and huge right now. Simply put I just feel terrible about myself right now.

I need to take a break from the scale for a few days. I know it's going to fluctuate and just plain not move at times. I think I'm approaching that dreaded plateau. My doctor said my weight loss would slow down as my body adjusted to its new weight. She said 155 is a good weight for me and that I might start looking sickly if I weighed 150. And I'm 163 right now, wavering between 163-161 for the past 2 weeks. My diet has not been perfect, but I've been good so far this week and not lost a single ounce! It's so frustrating. But I need to just stop stressing and focus on doing things the right way, and just trust that the rest of my weight loss will happen in due time. And I know it's not healthy to stress this much about my weight. So I'm just going to rest tonight and try to put it all out of my mind. My goal will be just to focus on feeling good and keeping a positive attitude.

Tomorrow I will run in the rain. 100% chance of rain. As long as it's not a total downpour where I'm getting pounded by rain I'll be fine. Friday I might try to do arm work, then long run on Saturday morning.

Now time for a nice relaxing bath !