So. Hungry.
I'm still trying to figure out what to eat and how much to eat to stay within daily calories, and just getting the whole balance right. Today I thought I ate enough... then around 1 I did some yard work. Finished raking the backyard... there weren't tons of leaves, but since there is no house on the right side of ours we get some big pile ups over there. And the weeds. Georgia is ridiculous, I pulled weeds the size of -bushes- on December 2nd. I let them go so long because I figured the cold would just kill them off, but evidently it hasn't been cold enough here because they were thriving and growing monstrous! After that I ate some apple slices, almond butter, and a string cheese, and then did yoga again (the 90 minute P90X yoga course) and I didn't have as much energy as I did last week. Then I looked at my phone and realized I have a 1100 calorie deficit! Had some protein and a banana and felt fine, but now I'm hungry. And I'm tired and lazy. All weekend I've been exercising, doing chores, and running around town trying to look for employment. I just don't feel like cooking right now! I want pizza. Aside from Thanksgiving, I haven't eaten bad in 2 weeks, not since after the Santa Chase 5k I ran on the 17th. I have worked really hard these past couple weeks. So you know what, I'm ordering some damn pizza. I just won't gorge myself on it - gonna eat it slowly, only got a medium for the 2 of us to eat so there won't be extra food to tempt me into overeating. Gonna have me some pizza with my favorite 2 toppings - pepperoni and jalapenos. Mmmmm.
I think I've done a good job so far of shifting my mind towards a healthier lifestyle, thus cleaning up my eating and exercise habits. One of the main reasons I started this initiative is something I have not yet discussed - my health. I have a couple of conditions which if not managed properly can cause serious health problems down the road. I have
Hypoglycemia and
PCOS. It's very important that I treat both of these conditions correctly to avoid them turning into something serious.
I have had hypoglycemia for about 5 years now. I unfortunately found out I had it on a hiking trip. When we still lived in Virginia we always took trips up to
Shenandoah National Park to camp and hike. One of our favorite trails was White Oak Canyon, you start at the top of the mountain and hike down a series of 6 waterfalls and then hike back up to return. One day when we got to the bottom we decided to take a different trail back. We found out after the fact that Cedar Run trail was one of the most difficult trails they had. Some time into the hike I started feeling really weird. Shaky, cold sweats, weak, like I was going to pass out from exhaustion. My judgement even got a little hazy. I kept thinking "What the hell is wrong with me? I shouldn't be this worn out from hiking! I'm not that out of shape, I've done this kind of thing tons of times before!" I kept telling my husband he had to go find help, because I absolutely could not make it. I had to stop every couple of minutes. But it was getting late in the day so he made me push on. At the top I puked my guts out. When we got back to camp I just felt so sick, yet my body seemed to tell me it needed food. Specifically I wanted something sugary, but I couldn't explain why. I felt like it would just make me sicker, but I ended up eating a can of pears and I actually felt better afterward. When I found out hypoglycemia was the cause, I learned that I need to eat a snack every 2-3 hours, or just whenever my body tells me (I start to get the shakes). I need to carry snacks with me. I need to avoid sugar, alcohol, and white flour. I need to eat alot of protein and fiber because they are filling and don't cause blood sugar highs and lows. When my sugar drops too low I can eat sugar to bring me back up, but it needs to be followed with a more substantial meal. I also learned that when I exercise for 30 minutes or more, I need Gatorade or some source of calories. I knew this was true, because I experienced the weird shakes after intense gym sessions too. So I have lived with this for years now and it's quite manageable. I just need to be careful - diabetes runs in my family and hypoglycemia has the potential to one day cause diabetes. Challenge #1.
PCOS is a more recent diagnosis for me. I've had issues with irregular periods since 21 or so - strangely enough, around the same time I found out about my low blood sugar. I saw about 6 different doctors and none of them could tell me what was wrong, and to my frustration, brushed it off by telling me "its fine, this just happens to some people" or "why do you care, you told me you don't want kids anyway" Um, I care because something is WRONG and this is my health? Only when I came here to Georgia did a doctor finally think to run a blood test - which came back with elevated testosterone levels. That plus my other symptoms = PCOS. I have a pretty minor case, in worse cases there are more extreme treatments, but diet and exercise are said to be the best way to minimize symptoms. My doctor put me on the pill, and at this point I had already begun my weight loss program so she just said to come back in 3 months for a follow up. Losing weight should help with the hormone imbalance. Again, diet is important here. Whole grains, fruits, veggies, lean meats, little sugar, few processed foods. PCOS is often linked to diabetes and obesity, and even though I am the reverse of diabetes it probably explains why I have sugar issues in the first place. So again, key here is management. Challenge #2.
These issues have caused me grief and some stress, but you know what? I'm at a turning point - I can let them run my life, or I can do something about it by improving my diet and weight. Yes, I'm at a disadvantage since I need calories during intense workouts to prevent blood sugar crashes. I could potentially pass out, go into a coma, and even die if I crash and it is not treated. But all that means is - I prepare, make sure I get calories when I need them, carry ID saying I'm hypoglycemic, and train harder to accustom my body to endure. I'm not going to let these things stop me from becoming an athlete. I have my own unique challenges to overcome, but that just makes it all the more worth doing.